Kill Or Be Killed

It’s kill or be killed
And I think I may need a bigger knife
Before it’s too late,
Before I’m seen
Because every spotlight…spots
And adrenaline is my passing regret
While acceleration becomes exhilaration
Stretching out my hand
I begin to understand
As my thighs clench
The thin line
Between love and hate

Ironing

Hot-pressing the crease

A vaping swirl…

Here then not

Flat on the board

The perfect fifth

Fingering your c(h)ord

Moving right…

But it’s really counter

Always cleaning life’s clock

Praying for release

Praying for the girl

Praying for one more shot

But damn you’re a sight!

Naked for this encounter

Proving to me it’s not just talk

My Dearest Beast,

You are my inspiration, my destiny, my passion!

I love you 🙂

Doomed

Oh black veil of depression envelop me not.

Silence rewards her with sorrow moribund to rot.

A beast that hath scorned is a beast that will know pain.

For I am the beast that karma will burn in misery’s flames.

Purgatory will hold my soul for I cannot leave.

Truth be truth for there are no lies in this self deceit.

I will die wanting more than I ever deserved.

And I will live long stinking here like a putrid evil turd.

More than ordinary

And there she was…
My mistress, my mind
Giving me something to believe in
I am but a slave
To her silent whispers
And her wicked demands
My involuntary compulsions
Encouraged, and at last celebrated
And she cuts me
Deeper than deep
Just to see if I’ll bleed
And when I do…
She says it’s the scars that define us
It’s the proof
That our life was more than ordinary

Love me like I love you

I won’t see you again for 4 months
That thought, in and of itself
Has left me a complete mess
My insides…feel rendered
It’s a love melt-down
And I feel like I am suffocating in the fungi-cloud
I’m not even getting high
Just low, low, low
The pain is that bad
I’m so low right now…
That the world is walking all over me
My beautiful reflection…
Where have you gone?
My magical mirror…
Where I could see you…
Where I could see me…
Is it broken?
There is such beast inside this beauty…
Our beauty
I have so much love inside…
So tear me apart!
Rip me open!
Pull it out of me!
Love me like I love you❤️