Oh black veil of depression envelop me not.
Silence rewards her with sorrow moribund to rot.
A beast that hath scorned is a beast that will know pain.
For I am the beast that karma will burn in misery’s flames.
Purgatory will hold my soul for I cannot leave.
Truth be truth for there are no lies in this self deceit.
I will die wanting more than I ever deserved.
And I will live long stinking here like a putrid evil turd.
And there she was…
My mistress, my mind
Giving me something to believe in
I am but a slave
To her silent whispers
And her wicked demands
My involuntary compulsions
Encouraged, and at last celebrated
And she cuts me
Deeper than deep
Just to see if I’ll bleed
And when I do…
She says it’s the scars that define us
It’s the proof
That our life was more than ordinary
Before we die…I want us to live together too. I love you with all my heart ❤️
I won’t see you again for 4 months
That thought, in and of itself
Has left me a complete mess
My insides…feel rendered
It’s a love melt-down
And I feel like I am suffocating in the fungi-cloud
I’m not even getting high
Just low, low, low
The pain is that bad
I’m so low right now…
That the world is walking all over me
My beautiful reflection…
Where have you gone?
My magical mirror…
Where I could see you…
Where I could see me…
Is it broken?
There is such beast inside this beauty…
Our beauty
I have so much love inside…
So tear me apart!
Rip me open!
Pull it out of me!
Love me like I love you❤️
Laughing cos you’re happy,
Laughing to hide you’re sad.
Laughter as a medicine,
Laughing away the bad.
Some hide behind this laughter,
Some don’t, and that’s just fine.
I’m gonna laugh my way through both,
Laugh my way home.
Life is full of noise,
The trick is drowning some out.
Amplifying the important,
Whilst muting what we can do without.
Life is full of noise,
Some are smooth and soothe our very souls.
Some are harsh that grate upon our nerves,
The trick, use the tone control.
Life is full of noise,
I’m learning to hear and adjust.
For I need my hearing to be crystal clear.
I need to listen for us.
I love you my Beauty, I’m yours and will always endeavour to listen.
I will defy you in every word.
I will resist ’til the war has turned.
I will fight with every fibre of my being.
I will strain to wipe you off my scene.
I will never fall under your rule.
I will defend my heart, and soul too.
I will win and love will prevail.
And you, yes you! You will fail.
