In the dark there can be no forgiveness
Not for me, not for you
Our whimpers have become a scream
Pains of the body where we hide
Confusing life, inside our life, inside our dream
It’s taking even more, more than we thought
And we are meant for beautiful things
So please, I need you to feel me tonight
With an open mind
In our dark there is only forgiveness
For me, and for you
It’s kill or be killed
And I think I may need a bigger knife
Before it’s too late,
Before I’m seen
Because every spotlight…spots
And adrenaline is my passing regret
While acceleration becomes exhilaration
Stretching out my hand
I begin to understand
As my thighs clench
The thin line
Between love and hate
I won’t see you again for 4 months
That thought, in and of itself
Has left me a complete mess
My insides…feel rendered
It’s a love melt-down
And I feel like I am suffocating in the fungi-cloud
I’m not even getting high
Just low, low, low
The pain is that bad
I’m so low right now…
That the world is walking all over me
My beautiful reflection…
Where have you gone?
My magical mirror…
Where I could see you…
Where I could see me…
Is it broken?
There is such beast inside this beauty…
Our beauty
I have so much love inside…
So tear me apart!
Rip me open!
Pull it out of me!
Love me like I love you❤️
I don’t want to un-do
The affection coming from you
But, I’ve lost my grip
Possibilities…like the whores they are
Have decided to grind and strip
And the beads of sweat
Dripping down my spine
Are lubricating the way
And I can smell the dirty temptation
Pitching a fit in my thong
Waiting for you to bite into it
Fuck!…why can’t you just stay?
Will things go our way…in the end?
Or will my insecurities unravel…
The blanket we’re sharing?
And leave us both freezing?
Deadly revolutions
Over and again
Again and over
A tour en le’air
Held in the shadows
Of my doubts
A Cacophony with no rhyme
Pains me without any reason
Oh how vile…my hidden odile!
Her plumes of black
Seducing my sanity
As she pirouettes into my heart
Toe drilling for my poison
Releasing our ritual of reverence
Your words…
Are your weapons of choice
Who knew buckshot had a voice…
You’ve made sure the shrapnel is deeply buried
A cellular pain that must be carried
How much more can I take…
Before I bend so far, I snap and break?
I’m out of my head tonight
I’ve conceded the fight
But the question’s remain
In my mind, they are a permanent stain
The what if’s?
The how’s?
The when’s?
The where’s?
Impossibility has punctured my tranquility
It’s needling need…a junkie’s disability
My heart-burns with destructive despair
And no amount of antacid
Can clean it’s toxic air
Right now, nothing is placid
How can a thumb crush?
Pressing mine against the window
I’m looking at the world on the other side
It’s making me so cold in the middle…
My eyes close on a deep breath
As my thumb depresses the up
My spirit is in such a shaking rush…
I’m standing on one leg like a pink flamingo
So pretty to look at…even though I’m nibbling at my hide
I wanna get high and lost, and that’s not a riddle
A light shone down yesterday, it was a little death
I tried to catch it, but I didn’t have a lid on my cup
