Melancholy

Melancholy has taken grip of my soul,

Tears at my heart, my mind, my whole.

It’s lowered its black veil to block out light,

A blanket of gloom against which I cannot fight.

I tried to hide and let it pass unnoticed,

But it heard the tears upon which I was choking.

It claws at my pain carving wounds upon which it feeds.

It finds in me, all it could ever need.

Unhappiness, guilt, A forlorn lack of hope.

When the reality check hit like a rat that jumped boat.

I will look for it again I have to, to survive.

I need that hope or I might as well die.

A victim to reality as dreams are just that it seems.

And melancholy found me, a ripe banquet on which it feeds.

Pains of the body where we hide

In the dark there can be no forgiveness

Not for me, not for you

Our whimpers have become a scream

Pains of the body where we hide

Confusing life, inside our life, inside our dream

It’s taking even more, more than we thought

And we are meant for beautiful things

So please, I need you to feel me tonight

With an open mind

In our dark there is only forgiveness

For me, and for you

 

Doomed

Oh black veil of depression envelop me not.

Silence rewards her with sorrow moribund to rot.

A beast that hath scorned is a beast that will know pain.

For I am the beast that karma will burn in misery’s flames.

Purgatory will hold my soul for I cannot leave.

Truth be truth for there are no lies in this self deceit.

I will die wanting more than I ever deserved.

And I will live long stinking here like a putrid evil turd.

Drop Off

You’ve just dropped me
Off...
At the airport
Now I’m lost in this tacky sea
With its rocky wave
Ripping me apart
Oh! The ache in my heart…
Ignoring my plea to save
Depression my old friend
You’ve come to see me again

Reddening my vision
The cut, the incision
The release….
And so my tear dropped
Into my taco salad
Mixed with that hot salsa
And that man next to me
He watched me fork it into my mouth…
Tonight I’m headed down south
In more ways than one
My life’s purpose
My play, in several acts
I pray one day
That you will stand in ovation